WHAT DO i do i love him!!!?

OKAY SO ME AND MY FIANCE GOT BACK TOGETHER SO WE WENT SHOPPING YESTERDAY AND THEN WE GO MEET UP WITH HIS FRIEND I WAS STRAVING ALL DAY SO I GOT OUT THE CAR AND WENT IN THE RESTAURANT WITH MY FIANCE FRIEND HES A CLOSE FRIEND OF OUR HE WAS DRUNK AND SO WAS HIS FRIEND SO THEY COME IN AND START TALKING THEY START ARGUING SO MY FIANCE GETS ALERTED AND STANDS UP NEXT TO THE GUY AND THEY START TALKING ABOUT SELLING SOME MORE KIL OZ I GET MAD BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THIS MY BOYFRIEND AND I GOT IN A FIGHT A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO AND HE WAS STAYING WITH HIS FRIEND SO I KNEW WHAT HE DID HE THEN GETS BACK IN THE TRUCK AND I TELL HIM HES STUPID AND I START CRYING I TELL HIM HAVING ALL THEY MONEY IN THE WORLD ISN'T WORTH LOOSING YOUR FAMILY AND LIFE OVER HE TELLS ME HES TIERD OF WORKING THE REST OF HIS LIFE AND HE NEEDS THE MONEY BECAUSE HE HAS NO CAR AND WERE LIVIN WITH MY PARENTS I TELL HIM THAT'S PART OF LIFE YOU HAVE TO WORK FOR YOUR MONEY AND DO IT THE RIGHT WAY NO TAKING THE EASY WAY OUT AND PUTTING HIS LIFE AT RISK HE TELLS ME TO CHILL BUT I CANT I CANT SIT HERE AND WATCH HIM THROW HIS LIFE AWAY LIKE THAT HE MEANS MORE TO ME THEN ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD IF HE WANTS THE MONEY THEN IM OUT THE PICTURE WHAT DO I DO I NEED ADVICE IM GOING STRESSING OUT AND CANT WORK!!!